It’s been another two weeks.
I really don’t know what to say. Sorry seems to be the hardest word (sing it Elton!)
Anyway, contrary to the title of this post (the first part), I have not been writing. Not really. I should have written 8 articles and cleared my schedule till the end of the year, but I’ve written 2.
Why? See the second part of the title.
I didn’t know I was passive aggressive till I got married. On a side note, you never know how angry and how often you can get angry till you get married. To all my single ladies out there, practice deep breathing and counting to ten before you meet The One. It will come in handy.
Anyway, what does being passive aggressive have to do with life as a writer? Well, when you write for clients who pay you per article, you find out rather quickly that most people are not blessed with your kind of genius. As a matter of fact, they tend to land at the other end of the intelligence meter.
…(excuse me while I count to ten)…so let’s say I’m supposed to write 8 articles, and my client is supposed to pay me for 5 articles already written, and does not do so, nor see it fit to inform me that said money will not be paid in at agreed upon time, well then, that just gets my goat.
But I am nothing, if not professional, so what do I do – I delay said client’s work till they are gagging for it, and then instead of 8, I send in 1 just before they are to go to press. I don’t know why but it warms the cockles of me heart to see them scramble.
Unfortunately, I am also a creature of habit, and after a while, I am unable to bring myself to deliver said client’s work in time. Ever again. This pains me because I keep hearing Neil Gaiman’s voice in my head saying, “Send in your work on time. Make sure it’s good work. Make sure you’re a pleasure to work with”, or something along those lines. It’s just that between myself and said client there is an almost septic yet cordial culture of disrespect.
It’s not good for me, and I don’t know if I should continue. The work is fairly challenging. The money is handy, but I pick up bad habits very easily, and they have turned out to be such evil communication.
Whatever shall I do?